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Oct. 24th, 2003 06:19 pmdoom dooom doooom dooooooom doom,
midterms papers commitees
nervous breakdown now
My life is so full, but full of things to get me out of PSU, not things I want to do, or if I want to do them, I don't have time to do them well.
I am taking third year german for fun - it is wrong, but I don't want to loose everything I have learned in the last year, it would be a horrible waist and I would never learn it again. But I dont have time to do anything well.
I am taking welding which should be cool but I dread going to class because I am always so tiered, I don't have enough time to work on my project which sucks and is due next week.
I manage to relax for a few hours when I should be sleeping, or I feel guilty if I relax while there is daylight because I should be working on *things*.
Then I have my two art history classes; both have papers due and I have no clue what to write about - I havn't had time to spend in the library.
And then stupid things like trying desperately for 30 minutes to find a parking spot, failing, and being late to class because I had to go pay to park take up tons of time and add even more stress. WHy do I have a parking permit that costs two hundred and frikkin tweny two dollars a term? To torcher myself obviously.
And then there is my thesis. Heh. Like that will ever happen.
People honor me by asking me to be on the Promotion and Tenure commitee for the art department, I can't say no, my advisor recomended me and she's great, but now I have another letter to write, students to interview, class responses to read.
If I don't get into grad school after this hell I think I will either kill myself or go be a hermit.
I will make my friends bring me food every week since my mind will be so addled that I will simply sit there mumbling to myself and have no capacity for things like gathering berrys or catching fish. My cat will be my only source of warmth.
midterms papers commitees
nervous breakdown now
My life is so full, but full of things to get me out of PSU, not things I want to do, or if I want to do them, I don't have time to do them well.
I am taking third year german for fun - it is wrong, but I don't want to loose everything I have learned in the last year, it would be a horrible waist and I would never learn it again. But I dont have time to do anything well.
I am taking welding which should be cool but I dread going to class because I am always so tiered, I don't have enough time to work on my project which sucks and is due next week.
I manage to relax for a few hours when I should be sleeping, or I feel guilty if I relax while there is daylight because I should be working on *things*.
Then I have my two art history classes; both have papers due and I have no clue what to write about - I havn't had time to spend in the library.
And then stupid things like trying desperately for 30 minutes to find a parking spot, failing, and being late to class because I had to go pay to park take up tons of time and add even more stress. WHy do I have a parking permit that costs two hundred and frikkin tweny two dollars a term? To torcher myself obviously.
And then there is my thesis. Heh. Like that will ever happen.
People honor me by asking me to be on the Promotion and Tenure commitee for the art department, I can't say no, my advisor recomended me and she's great, but now I have another letter to write, students to interview, class responses to read.
If I don't get into grad school after this hell I think I will either kill myself or go be a hermit.
I will make my friends bring me food every week since my mind will be so addled that I will simply sit there mumbling to myself and have no capacity for things like gathering berrys or catching fish. My cat will be my only source of warmth.
