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I feel tonally sick - I got up in the morning and felt sick, so bailed on going up to the gallery to do one of my gallery days (hence feel extremely guilty). Then Ed and Catherine came over to work more on furniture instillation - much craziness and quite draining. Then started to go to physical therapy and proved that I was actually sick by starting to feel extremely car-sick. Sigh. Now I am feeling icky. And still feeling guilty. Which of course makes me feel ickier. I feel better if I lay down, but Hank is trying to sleep and I can't sleep because if I just lay in bed I just think about how uncomfortable I feel and all the stuff I didn't get done today. Blah. And I have to go in to do a private belay tomorrow. I really hope I feel better or else it is going to seriously suck.
On the plus side I did some good juggling practice yesterday - managed to partially get down cool trick where I juggle two metal goblets and a bean bag, catch one bean bag in a goblet, then catch the other goblet on top of the first goblet. I showed it to Annie, Ed and Catherine today and they seemed to think it looks pretty cool. Go me. I am frustrated because I haven't been able to find any of the unstable platform documentation I need. I really want some. I want a documentable act where I avoid the "they could have done this because they had the materials" tenuous justification as much as possible. SO hard with juggling stuff though - all they ever show are frikkin' knives and balls. But I want to do something WHILE juggling knives so it looks more impressive. Sigh. But is it better to be more impressive or more documentable? I would say more impressive, but I am likely to get more points for more documentable. On the other hand, I know juggling performances are hard as hell to document (that is why I didn't enter one the first time I competed). So this time I am going out on a limb and trying to do the best I can despite the ten other people competing. I just have to keep telling myself that it doesn't matter that much how I do as well as I look cool and have a good time, but on the other hand more people I care about (my parents, my husband...) will be there to watch me do m thing this time, which really makes me want to do well. On the other hand, they will hopefully all think I am great no matter what. Meep.
More worrying about Kingdom A&S doom. I need to do more glass blowing. But it is so frikkin' expensive and I am broke. Grrr.
Yet more Kingdom A&S doom - cleaning up largish bronze castings by hand take frikkin' forever and is hell on ones hands. I really really really want to use my dremmel tool damn it. But I am resisting. But it could be done so soon.... sigh. I really hope Alfric likes his polycandelon when I get the damn thing done.
So would I have entered a research paper if I had known that ten other people were entering? Hmmm... dunno. Maybe not - last time my research paper got the lowest score despite not being too bad. It is just hard to stack papers against projects. On the other hand, I might not have ended up entering because I wouldn't have had enough time. See... I totally freak out about things and worry and fret and obsess when I can't get to sleep. I suppose better obsessing here than in bed keeping Hank from getting to sleep.
On the plus side I did some good juggling practice yesterday - managed to partially get down cool trick where I juggle two metal goblets and a bean bag, catch one bean bag in a goblet, then catch the other goblet on top of the first goblet. I showed it to Annie, Ed and Catherine today and they seemed to think it looks pretty cool. Go me. I am frustrated because I haven't been able to find any of the unstable platform documentation I need. I really want some. I want a documentable act where I avoid the "they could have done this because they had the materials" tenuous justification as much as possible. SO hard with juggling stuff though - all they ever show are frikkin' knives and balls. But I want to do something WHILE juggling knives so it looks more impressive. Sigh. But is it better to be more impressive or more documentable? I would say more impressive, but I am likely to get more points for more documentable. On the other hand, I know juggling performances are hard as hell to document (that is why I didn't enter one the first time I competed). So this time I am going out on a limb and trying to do the best I can despite the ten other people competing. I just have to keep telling myself that it doesn't matter that much how I do as well as I look cool and have a good time, but on the other hand more people I care about (my parents, my husband...) will be there to watch me do m thing this time, which really makes me want to do well. On the other hand, they will hopefully all think I am great no matter what. Meep.
More worrying about Kingdom A&S doom. I need to do more glass blowing. But it is so frikkin' expensive and I am broke. Grrr.
Yet more Kingdom A&S doom - cleaning up largish bronze castings by hand take frikkin' forever and is hell on ones hands. I really really really want to use my dremmel tool damn it. But I am resisting. But it could be done so soon.... sigh. I really hope Alfric likes his polycandelon when I get the damn thing done.
So would I have entered a research paper if I had known that ten other people were entering? Hmmm... dunno. Maybe not - last time my research paper got the lowest score despite not being too bad. It is just hard to stack papers against projects. On the other hand, I might not have ended up entering because I wouldn't have had enough time. See... I totally freak out about things and worry and fret and obsess when I can't get to sleep. I suppose better obsessing here than in bed keeping Hank from getting to sleep.
